Today, women all over the world have more choices than
ever before. We have more and more intelligent, ambitious, trendy and yet not
satisfied women. People say, I am all of the aforementioned. Over twenty years
of my life, I spent staying true to my belief that love does exist. Love. Plus
the perfect man. Well, almost perfect. I refused to believe differently.
In the meantime, I have witnessed plenty of first hand
stories of married women, those not married, with or without children. Even
divorced ones. In the meantime, they all, especially those close to me, warned
me that I would be waiting a lifetime for such a love story that I had in my
mind. But, I was willing to wait. Because, I knew what is it that I need, and
must have. I analyzed and analyzed all those love stories, of women I
mentioned. Mine, as well. All the time, up until the end of this Summer. Well,
maybe it was even the Fall. Who cares?! In the process of my analyzing, I came
out with a conclusion: I am such a modest girl. I have only one criteria, when
it comes to men. All I am really looking for is a normal man. Since when this
even became a criteria? Shouldn’t that be a given? I really have no idea. All I
know, right now, is that love is a tyranny no women can escape from. Most of
the time, I felt like Alice in Wonderland. How is it possible that there is no
man out there, who will appreciate me and my honesty, loyalty and all the
energy I add to the relationship?
I guess it is all so impossible, cause love, trust and
simplicity took a nap, and I haven’t even noticed. Even though, I always knew
that love is a weakness of the mind, I did truly believe that there is a man
that would be worth having in my life.
However, I lost that race already. And, I know I am not
the only one. Smart, fun and confident
women have always been a challenge for men. When they see such a woman, they turn
into predators. They turn their game up a notch, and play to win her over. And,
when they do, they realize they are not men enough to handle such a woman.
Today, it is extremely difficult to figure out where did I
get all my energy to fight for my relationships in the past, and all that I now
know does not exist. Men are men. One in a million is useful. Just like a
spermatozoid. They are a mastered skill. I maybe should not say this, but they
are all the same. They just have different faces, and some of them may
occasionally act better than the other.
I no longer, try to believe that I can change a man. Or,
that any man can be different that all the ones before. I do believe in myself,
and walking through life in my own footsteps. Tomorrow may be different.
Yesterday has its own story, but yesterday is gone.
Many women believe they need a man by their side to be
their balance. I used to believe that, too. But, now I know that I need myself
by my side to be my balance, and that among all the relationships out there,
the most important is the one I have with myself.
And, who needs men at all…? Yes, men…those creatures that
have problems communicating, throw their dirty socks all over the place…those
that don’t like red color…Well, they do, but a woman should wear as they see it
fit! Maybe, it’s the genetic code, which I do not understand, or something
else… Either way, the best relationship I have ever had, is the one I have with
myself.
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